Breaking up is never easy especially for girls who offer her life.
Yes I agreed to him, we really need a break. a break that I know would torn me apart. I keep myself from doing this I never done before. Keeping myself busy. But at the end of the day, he's still in me, in my heart and in my mind. I never know why did it happen. It's just like a shot. I know people would keep on telling me, to move on. He's the one to who will be aggressive or say go on to you and not me. I'm keep asking myself, is ti worth the tears that I shed each night before I close my eyes to sleep? and my mind would keep answering yes! Yes!
I know this isn't an easy way. Break up is never an easy way. healing process would take some time and maybe it would take some years to heal and mend a broken heart. I nkow I foolish to say this but I guess that's all I could say.. That's all what I feel..
I feel nothing and very empty without him. he's very different from all other and I know I'm an idiot to let him go. To let him slip away in my hands.. to hurt him and make him feel that he's not helping me. and I guess that's all I could do.. wait... and change....
thanks for making me strong thought I'm quite vulnerable now. I know there's nothing wrong to cry... cRying relieves the pain and anxiety of a person. And I guess that's the way of life.
I can't get rid of it like a snap of a hand... Long term process... thanks to my friend who keep on helping me and trying to reach me though he's really admitting tthat's he's useless because he's not helping me or something. But thanks atleast I nkow I have a friend, a true friend. Though I keep on getting him annoyed because of the things I've done. Yes. I admit that I'm an idot to do that horrible thing but that's the way it has to be.
